Matt and Karen had made more sense on paper. If Matt had to pick a damaged woman to love, he should have picked one with more maturity. Someone so much prettier than Katniss; not that looks necessarily matter all that much to the blind. A lot of her thoughts stem from her own issues with inadequacy. That she could never be good enough for anyone like Matt.
There. That's all he has to remember if he ever has doubts. She's eighteen. She's legal. And she's accepted that she's fallen in love with him. Katniss had never wanted to fall in love with anyone, not when she knows how much it can cost. But life never works out the way you plan it. That she knows all too well. She loves him and she's happy with him and she's never going to let anyone change her mind about that. At least for as long as Matt loves her in return.
Maybe getting her GED wouldn't be so bad. Going to college. Actually doing something with her life rather than just living for others. But it would be along while before that can happen. All her money needs to go towards Prim's education right now and the little bit she keeps for herself goes to pay for her keep within Matt's loft. She could take GRE courses at night, especially if her next job is during the daytime. There's still a lot to think about. So many possibilities that she never thought she would have.
As long as he comes home alive from his patrols, Katniss' nights are already made better. But she'll be happy to share his bed with him rather than have it to herself. She'll be happy to cede control to Matt every night if those nights wind up being as good as tonight. This is something wonderful. Better than she could ever imagine.
She's had sex more times than she can count and, although rare, sometimes it did feel good. She often faked orgasms rather than actually experience them. Nothing about tonight needs to be faked, not given the way Matt's already making her feel. His mouth is hot and wet against her neck and the way he nibbles at her skin just makes her want more. Harder bites, softer bites, she doesn't care. Katniss just wants to feel every part of him against every part of her. It's a wish that seems to be easy for Matt to grant. She crushes her lips to his again as soon as she can, tongue entering his mouth without hesitation. Her fingers curl against his chest when he begins to rub himself against her - an action that Katniss eagerly reciprocates. She knows that Matt wants to go slow but everything is heat and fire and passion to her right now. Wanting in a way she never did. Slow isn't quite on her mind.
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There. That's all he has to remember if he ever has doubts. She's eighteen. She's legal. And she's accepted that she's fallen in love with him. Katniss had never wanted to fall in love with anyone, not when she knows how much it can cost. But life never works out the way you plan it. That she knows all too well. She loves him and she's happy with him and she's never going to let anyone change her mind about that. At least for as long as Matt loves her in return.
Maybe getting her GED wouldn't be so bad. Going to college. Actually doing something with her life rather than just living for others. But it would be along while before that can happen. All her money needs to go towards Prim's education right now and the little bit she keeps for herself goes to pay for her keep within Matt's loft. She could take GRE courses at night, especially if her next job is during the daytime. There's still a lot to think about. So many possibilities that she never thought she would have.
As long as he comes home alive from his patrols, Katniss' nights are already made better. But she'll be happy to share his bed with him rather than have it to herself. She'll be happy to cede control to Matt every night if those nights wind up being as good as tonight. This is something wonderful. Better than she could ever imagine.
She's had sex more times than she can count and, although rare, sometimes it did feel good. She often faked orgasms rather than actually experience them. Nothing about tonight needs to be faked, not given the way Matt's already making her feel. His mouth is hot and wet against her neck and the way he nibbles at her skin just makes her want more. Harder bites, softer bites, she doesn't care. Katniss just wants to feel every part of him against every part of her. It's a wish that seems to be easy for Matt to grant. She crushes her lips to his again as soon as she can, tongue entering his mouth without hesitation. Her fingers curl against his chest when he begins to rub himself against her - an action that Katniss eagerly reciprocates. She knows that Matt wants to go slow but everything is heat and fire and passion to her right now. Wanting in a way she never did. Slow isn't quite on her mind.