Right now, he's completely okay with forever. He doesn't believe in it, but
he's okay with it. it's not that he minds being the only person in her
life, but he doesn't want to isolate her either. For Matt, having Katniss
here is all about giving her a better life, that includes encouraging her
to let other people in.
She is not going to turn out to be that sort of girl. If she were
that sort of girl, Matt wouldn't have her living here. He's 'gone out' with
that sort of girl before. he never sticks around until morning. They'll
start with a date night to one of his favorite restaurants close by and
branch out from there. It's funny, he's more likely to push her out of her
comfort zone dating than he ever is having sex.
It would be nice to be able to hit that fast forward button, but they'd
miss so much if they did that and Matt suspects the journey, though
difficult, will be worth taking. He doesn't mind that she feels gratitude
toward him. He's grateful to have her in his life, that she stayed instead
of becoming another runaway. Of course, had she done that he would have
hunted her down to make sure she was okay, but he wouldn't have dragged her
back here. Her staying is always going to be her choice. If he'd known
about the Games sooner, he would have rescued her sooner. He'll never stop
feeling guilty that he didn't find out about something as huge a the Games
earlier.
He'd started this determined to talk, but that determination is slipping
every time she touches him or kisses him. She won't say the wrong thing.
There's no wrong thing to say here because what she's got to say and what
she's feeling is important to Matt, very, very important. And mutual
pleasure is just as necessary to Matt. That's something that he will, at
least, insist upon.
At least she's made it clear that she does want this. He's just not
entirely sure that her mindset is right for this, which is what makes him
hesitate. She clearly hasn't been with the right kind of men if she thinks
that her pleasure doesn't matter. He can feel her shiver and intuit enough
to know that it's with pleasure and not because she's uncomfortable. It's a
good thing that she's not counting the moments until they're done because
Matt certainly isn't either. In fact, he's still trying to get her to slow
down.
He pulls back so that she can see his face and his expression. "Katniss, I
know I don't have to. I want to. That's part of it. I want
you to enjoy this. I want to kiss you and touch you." His brow is furrowed
and his expression a little worried. He's also trying very hard to focus on
anything except the way her hands feel on him. "Slow down. Please." His
voice is more than a little ragged and breathy. He reaches up to cup her
face. He leans in to kiss her lips again. It's obvious she's not as
innocent as he had assumed and the only difference that makes is he's a
little less worried about doing something she's clueless about.
Re: Saw what?
Right now, he's completely okay with forever. He doesn't believe in it, but he's okay with it. it's not that he minds being the only person in her life, but he doesn't want to isolate her either. For Matt, having Katniss here is all about giving her a better life, that includes encouraging her to let other people in.
She is not going to turn out to be that sort of girl. If she were that sort of girl, Matt wouldn't have her living here. He's 'gone out' with that sort of girl before. he never sticks around until morning. They'll start with a date night to one of his favorite restaurants close by and branch out from there. It's funny, he's more likely to push her out of her comfort zone dating than he ever is having sex.
It would be nice to be able to hit that fast forward button, but they'd miss so much if they did that and Matt suspects the journey, though difficult, will be worth taking. He doesn't mind that she feels gratitude toward him. He's grateful to have her in his life, that she stayed instead of becoming another runaway. Of course, had she done that he would have hunted her down to make sure she was okay, but he wouldn't have dragged her back here. Her staying is always going to be her choice. If he'd known about the Games sooner, he would have rescued her sooner. He'll never stop feeling guilty that he didn't find out about something as huge a the Games earlier.
He'd started this determined to talk, but that determination is slipping every time she touches him or kisses him. She won't say the wrong thing. There's no wrong thing to say here because what she's got to say and what she's feeling is important to Matt, very, very important. And mutual pleasure is just as necessary to Matt. That's something that he will, at least, insist upon.
At least she's made it clear that she does want this. He's just not entirely sure that her mindset is right for this, which is what makes him hesitate. She clearly hasn't been with the right kind of men if she thinks that her pleasure doesn't matter. He can feel her shiver and intuit enough to know that it's with pleasure and not because she's uncomfortable. It's a good thing that she's not counting the moments until they're done because Matt certainly isn't either. In fact, he's still trying to get her to slow down.
He pulls back so that she can see his face and his expression. "Katniss, I know I don't have to. I want to. That's part of it. I want you to enjoy this. I want to kiss you and touch you." His brow is furrowed and his expression a little worried. He's also trying very hard to focus on anything except the way her hands feel on him. "Slow down. Please." His voice is more than a little ragged and breathy. He reaches up to cup her face. He leans in to kiss her lips again. It's obvious she's not as innocent as he had assumed and the only difference that makes is he's a little less worried about doing something she's clueless about.