He doesn't do the things he does for her now because he feels he has a
responsibility to her. He does them because he wants to help her, he likes
her and he wants her to have a chance at a better life. She got dealt a
very bad hand at a young age and he wants to help her make something
better. More than that, he wants to see her happy because he does like her.
And in that case, he's happy to listen, to let her talk to him about
whatever she wants to talk about. Maybe at some point, he'll push a little,
but for the most part he lets her decide what she talks about and when.
Unfortunately, she's right. Too often promises and trust are things that
are broken, but Matt is going to try to make sure that both of those stay
whole between the two of them. It's not as if he's got that many people he
trusts either, more than Katniss, but not an overabundance and he hopes
with time she'll come to trust Foggy and Karen as well, even Father Antram
so that if she needs him and can't get a hold of him, she has other people
to turn to.
That's why, for at least a little while, he'll try to make sparring with
him fun. He'll try to make teaching her and learning something fun. When
they're out at night hunting someone, it's serious, but training doesn't
have to be, not like that. Really, he wants Katniss to learn that not
everything is about survival. Life holds so much more than that. There's a
big difference between surviving and living. He hopes that one day she'll
learn to live rather than just survive.
She's not wrong about the reason his heart is beating so fast and so hard.
She is wrong about being kicked out of the apartment. This isn't
ever going to be connected to her living here and that's what Matt has to
stress to her so that she understands. She doesn't have to have sex with
him or anyone else in order to live here. This is her home now and
he's her friend. She's not going to lose him anymore than she's going to
lose a place to stay.
Oh, it's definitely working. he's responding to her in every way. He
doesn't pick her up or move her closer, that's not what this is about. Ths
is just a kiss and that's all it's going to be for the moment because of
all of Katniss' past issues and her thoughts on survival. No, there's
nothing wrong with what she did if it had been her choice. The fault lie
with the other people, the ones who had taken advantage of her and knowing
that she couldn't or wouldn't turn them away or ask them to stop. She
should always enjoy physical intimacy, that's what makes it so fantastic.
No, he does want to continue this eventually and he's stumbling over his
words because this is important, not to mention the blood isn't exactly
rushing to his brain. Really, it's like they're talking about two different
things and neither of them have enough information to really understand the
other one. He can sense the confusion coming off her in waves and he knows
that he's made a mess of all of this.
He stops moving away when she wraps an arm around him. She's even closer
now and that seems to be a good thing, then she's rubbing her hand against
him and he's gasping out loud. He's shocked at first, too shocked to move,
but after a moment he grabs her wrist, pulling her hand up and holding it
against his chest. His breath is coming in pants and his heart is still
going crazy. "Wait," he tells her, giving himself a chance to put his
thoughts together as much as anything. He tries to sort out her words and
her actions, everything she's been telling him in both ways up until this
point. He returns the kiss, still not giving the impression that this is
anything but mutual. He tangles his other hand up in her hair in an effort
to hold her there, to make sure she hears him out. "Katniss, I don't think
of you like a daughter or a sister. I know I probably should because of the
difference in our ages, but you're right: I do want you," he pauses,
drawing a deep breath, trying to gauge her reaction to his words. "It's
important that you want me too," he tells her in a quieter voice.
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He doesn't do the things he does for her now because he feels he has a responsibility to her. He does them because he wants to help her, he likes her and he wants her to have a chance at a better life. She got dealt a very bad hand at a young age and he wants to help her make something better. More than that, he wants to see her happy because he does like her.
And in that case, he's happy to listen, to let her talk to him about whatever she wants to talk about. Maybe at some point, he'll push a little, but for the most part he lets her decide what she talks about and when. Unfortunately, she's right. Too often promises and trust are things that are broken, but Matt is going to try to make sure that both of those stay whole between the two of them. It's not as if he's got that many people he trusts either, more than Katniss, but not an overabundance and he hopes with time she'll come to trust Foggy and Karen as well, even Father Antram so that if she needs him and can't get a hold of him, she has other people to turn to.
That's why, for at least a little while, he'll try to make sparring with him fun. He'll try to make teaching her and learning something fun. When they're out at night hunting someone, it's serious, but training doesn't have to be, not like that. Really, he wants Katniss to learn that not everything is about survival. Life holds so much more than that. There's a big difference between surviving and living. He hopes that one day she'll learn to live rather than just survive.
She's not wrong about the reason his heart is beating so fast and so hard. She is wrong about being kicked out of the apartment. This isn't ever going to be connected to her living here and that's what Matt has to stress to her so that she understands. She doesn't have to have sex with him or anyone else in order to live here. This is her home now and he's her friend. She's not going to lose him anymore than she's going to lose a place to stay.
Oh, it's definitely working. he's responding to her in every way. He doesn't pick her up or move her closer, that's not what this is about. Ths is just a kiss and that's all it's going to be for the moment because of all of Katniss' past issues and her thoughts on survival. No, there's nothing wrong with what she did if it had been her choice. The fault lie with the other people, the ones who had taken advantage of her and knowing that she couldn't or wouldn't turn them away or ask them to stop. She should always enjoy physical intimacy, that's what makes it so fantastic.
No, he does want to continue this eventually and he's stumbling over his words because this is important, not to mention the blood isn't exactly rushing to his brain. Really, it's like they're talking about two different things and neither of them have enough information to really understand the other one. He can sense the confusion coming off her in waves and he knows that he's made a mess of all of this.
He stops moving away when she wraps an arm around him. She's even closer now and that seems to be a good thing, then she's rubbing her hand against him and he's gasping out loud. He's shocked at first, too shocked to move, but after a moment he grabs her wrist, pulling her hand up and holding it against his chest. His breath is coming in pants and his heart is still going crazy. "Wait," he tells her, giving himself a chance to put his thoughts together as much as anything. He tries to sort out her words and her actions, everything she's been telling him in both ways up until this point. He returns the kiss, still not giving the impression that this is anything but mutual. He tangles his other hand up in her hair in an effort to hold her there, to make sure she hears him out. "Katniss, I don't think of you like a daughter or a sister. I know I probably should because of the difference in our ages, but you're right: I do want you," he pauses, drawing a deep breath, trying to gauge her reaction to his words. "It's important that you want me too," he tells her in a quieter voice.